The Dream!

Slothful, not a wise servant, lazy, sinful, procrastinator, glutinous, .... the list could continue but I just don't want to think of any more. What is the list of you might ask. It is a list of things that I am. I must strive harder to be the person that I dream of being. You know the Cool Aid mom! I want to be the mom that all kids think is awesome. The one that can have dinner on the table, homework done, laundry completed, baths finished, play time included and still have time to be beautiful when my dear hubby comes home and not grouchy. (Sigh) Yeah you know The Dream. The one that says we must be perfect in all ways in order to be who we are supposed to be. Well this post started off pretty weird but I am starting to feel a little better.

Okay I want to be the mother who manages to get up with scripture study and personal prayers every morning, breakfast on the table, clothes out and ready to go so that there are no delays as we get together and have family prayers in the morning before we all go on our merry little ways. And then when the kids are at school I want to volunteer at the hospital and keep and immaculate house and yard. Have a beautiful productive garden in which I am able to put up a full year of yummy food from the bountiful harvest. I want to have my visiting teaching done by the 15th of each month and still have time to spend with my mom and sisters. I want to be full of energy the mom who is perfect in looks at all time you know the ones. Their hair is never out of place and they always look like they have an endless wardrobe and never are overweight. I want to exercise everyday and stay away from chocolate and offer my service to the ward members who are in need of a helping hand. I want to be the best member missionary and the best family history specialist go to the temple once a week and still find the time for my children to have their activities. You know dance, karate, personal voice lessons, piano lessons and gymnastics. I want to give my children every opportunity so of course I want to teach them how to bake bread and make meals from scratch and definitely not have sandwiches 5 out of the 7 nights of the week. I want to be the person that I see in my head but I don't see in me.

I want to be the person with the stories of how they were sitting and felt the spirit tell them to do something and they did. I want to think I need to finish something and then do it. I want to sew, decorate, and in short be a wonderful home maker. Wow I want to be perfect. Can you believe that I want to be perfect and I want it now. How in the world do I go about my daily life and give myself so much grief. When I start to think of what I am not I get overwhelmed to the point of thinking well I can't have it all so I just going to read and that is my biggest vice of all reading I love to read. I love to sit for hours with a good book and go into another world in which the characters have problems and then they overcome them. I love to think of how it would be if I were that person and were able to do the same miraculous things. Soooooo with all that said, I know that it is necessary to take life one day and one thing at a time. I know that I am not a bad person in fact I am way better than just average because I am a daughter of God with all the potential that it entails. I know that with faith in the Lord Jesus Christ I can do all things that are expedient to return home to my Father in Heaven. One day, one goal, one step at a time I can have the dream. I can have it all but it may not be in this life and it may not all be at the same time. I pray that we all strive to give ourselves some slack and realize that we have great potential if we strive to perfect ourselves one day, one step, one thing at a time.